It’s been quite a while since my last entry here, but I thought now would be a good time to ramble a bit. I’m sitting outside, in the best spot I can find in this God forsaken town..On a park bench, underneath a tree in the lawn of the art school. This is the first time in several weeks that I have been able to stop and clear my head.. I am finishing up my final projects and presentations for my senior design classes, so these past two and a half weeks have been the most hectic weeks of my life.. I had 8 projects and a 10 page essay (along with 2 exams and a part-time job) to complete all within this two-week death sentence….
Currently I have managed to finish all but two, which are due tomorrow.. Looks like another long night for me! I have been averaging about 3 hours of sleep each night, and pulling at least 2 all nighters each week. There have been occasions where I had an opportunity to sleep in after a long night of work, and boy did I take advantage of that!!
Paranoia and anxiety tends to set in about the third day of little to no sleep, and this is not healthy for any kind of stable sense of life. I introduced myself to caffeine pills to aid me in my quests to pass these projects….these do not help the anxiety. However, they do make you forget about it for a few hours while all you can do is crank out a high volume of work through your hawk-eyed tunnel vision.
It’s a strange feeling being able to sit still now. As I type this I know that I have a full 15 minutes before I have to clock-in at work…well..10 now.. Those past 5 minutes seemed to creep by!
I realize that my writing is not nearly put in the same style as it would normally reflect..my thoughts are even more sporadic, and nothing seems to cross my mind even the slightest bit before I’m on to the next thought. I want to slow down, and enjoy these last 10 minutes, but I know my body won’t let me..It’s amazing how momentum works! You can move and move, seemingly endlessly until something snaps and your body decides it will no longer meet your demands..I am almost at that point!
Three. More. Days…. That’s all I have left before this marathon of a month will finally move on to it’s recovery period..
Stay hydrated my friends…this too shall pass..